Throughout this week, we have been completing all of our formative assessments. On Wednesday, i played the set that i had been practicing with my band for my Band Skills performance. I really feel that this was the worst performance i have done to date at ACM.
In order to complete the assessment we had to play two different songs. The first one being 'Feeling good' by muse and the second being 'Boy of summer' by The Ataris. I felt that the first song went OK despite a few mistakes, and the second being a very bad and embarrassing attempt from me. All of the problems started when i got on stage, as i accidentally tuned both of the guitars to the same tuning.
This was one hell of a stupid mistake, (my idea was to have two guitars, with one in E flat, so that i can just plug in and play with no problems having to tune half way in the performance.) I feel that this mistake was due to a sleeping problem that I have been experiencing over this past month. The night before the show, i only managed to get 3 hours sleep. The problem has been very severe, as some nights i have not been able to sleep at all and it is still ongoing. I feel that this has led to a much worse outcome for the performances this term.
We began the performance with a short run through of feeling good, as we were the first band on. I felt prepared for this and was wanting it all to run smoothly, however it didn't turn out that way. The first performance went OK for me, with the band being tight and in time. I didn't really experience any problems, up until the second song, When i got onstage and started playing the other guitar. The band kicked in with the first riff and i felt ready to go for it, however as i started to play the first three note of the intro, i knew that something was wrong.
I immediately started to tune my guitar with the tuner pedal that the college had provided, however i didn't realise that in order to tune my guitar to flat, the pedal had to display a small red dot next to the letter. So, i was tuning my guitar just above the E flat (which made it sound dreadfully out). I also ran into another problem when i asked Jacob if i could get a high E, however he was still in standard tuning as he was just playing the rhythm section of the song. So, i had no reference point with anyone.
I then just started to play, as i wanted to get off of the stage. The pressure had started to really get to me. I could see some audience member's and friend's faces screwed up in disapproval. At this point i just wanted to get out, as i knew that I was more than embarrassing myself. I had really lost the drive that i had between the first song, as i was kind of upset and surprised at how it had started to turn out. So i really didn't want to play.
I definitely feel that if i got a second chance of performing the song, I will have vastly improved upon the last performance, and change what the teacher expectations are of me now. I also feel that all of the performances that I have done for band skills have went down badly. With the first performance being dreadful, as i had guitarist who couldn't play the song (and has now left the college) and the bad circumstances of this one.
Since the performance, i have apologised to my band members, in which they took it kindly. However in the end, all i am letting down is myself.